MY Dreamworld.

biggest is not always the best

2009-11-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

They said:
What's the point living if you're killed inside?
What's the point sleeping when reality treats you better?
What's the point pretending when YOU know it's a lie?

Simply because, "there's just a point you'll get happy and it would be worth the misery". Right?

This is the title

2009-11-08T03:22:00.000-08:00

i'm not trying to be emo or whatever. But i hate mumy &obviously, she hates me too.
How i wish i could shout at her face whatever the right words are just to make her realise that i'm a typical teenage girl. Why does she always expect the best from me? Just because i use to be one of the best in our family. Anybody can change, and i'm one of those anybody.

I just arrived on planet earth.

2009-10-30T00:04:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Sparkling Eyed, Rez :DDDD
i wanted to text you midnight. but no credit :( i'm sorrrrrrrrrry!

Happy 5th Monthsary baby :D

When is hari raya coming back? I miss you, rayaaa. :/
Shafiqah, STAY STRONG! :)
p/s: every post will be simple from now on. due to malasism.
p/ss: this post should have a picture inserted. but: "upload failed"

See you there. :)

2009-10-26T08:53:00.000-07:00

This site is dead, follow me on tumblr:

itsemayoubitch.tumblr.com

YES, just click it and fly! See you there. :)

xx, ypf.

Freedom always feel sooooo AWESOME! :D

2009-10-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

Have you heard? YES! The PMB examination is sooooo over, and I won't miss to sit it again, it's dead. So yeah, don't go, "why is there so much youngster hanging in the mall? Don't they have end of year exams?" Cause we, the last PMB candidates are having jolly good time in gaydong. (Y) Yeah that's the way we roll! :D Well, not all of us though. Anyways, PMB was so-so. I think I'll get low for history. It was effing difficult bastards!

Any aunts and uncles whom wishes to 'bagi reward' regarding my PMB result? If you get what I mean ;)

I'm cool :8) oink oink.

2009-09-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

totally ;)

pink <3

2009-09-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

This is my very own 'Dream Room'. Daddy, may I? ;)

Don't you find stilettos gorgeous to own? Despite it's painful to wear. *huge sigh*
Especially the pink ones. I'd be lying if I say i hate them. The reason of this sudden topic is, I just saw a super gorgeous pink stilettos O=D

It's about 9 days to Raya. But another day to suffer before the 3rd term school holiday. Yahoo! Very sure all students is looking-forward for the hols. I don't know about the nerds though =p &zomg, PMB is a month to go. Chill mates, just start preparing. Relax a bit. Don't panic and get away from stress. :D

i`m buying a stairway to heaven (:

2009-08-03T01:18:00.000-07:00

Oral Exams for PMB starts tomorrow. My turn is on the 10th and the 17th. Well the whole girls in my class's turn :) so no geography remmedial for the next two week. But about science extra class, I`m not sure.

There's totally nothing to say. I don't think I`ll be updating till after I've had my oral turn. I THINK. We'll see.....

2009-07-27T00:10:00.000-07:00

Siti Nurfatimah :) not dated so I can`t tell how old i was.

The baby (and promoter) version of Mooez. LOL. Stole from his facebook!
Babe, jangan marah. (A)

mooooore of sweetness in life <3

2009-07-21T23:19:00.000-07:00

I love this photo. :) i don't know why. i just love it. maybe cause of the beautiful lighting.
Oh, thanks izzah for letting me to put her birthday cake photo into my blog alriiight.

MOO! (8

2009-07-18T07:41:00.000-07:00

My personal favourite. So i edited it. Tapi lawa lagi ori, i think.
Anyway, this guy is Ampuan Abdul Khalaf Muizzuddin Fakhrullah ♥♥♥ :D
Some call him pretty boy. LMFAO!

have a second of laugh ;)

2009-07-18T07:15:00.000-07:00

Let me share a joke.

At a party.
Girl1: You're wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger.
Girl2: Yes, i know, i married the wrong man.

Omg, isn`t that cool? LOL :P
another tomorrow or lusa. waiddup. lavyah. ciao.

a great amazing collection

2009-07-13T00:41:00.000-07:00

geography was like o.O but english was like :)
history was like..... !@#$%%^&*() so far paling sanang, maths 2. (Y)
i cancel watching harry potter premiere for tuition. im a goodie, NOT! fuck tuition, fuck aplus. i want flying colours baaaaack! :(

Lemme show some of daddy's amazing collection.

the minis he bought from ebay. these are the recent ones. there are more in the other box.

These are daddy's Mr. Potatos. Only one pack was ripped open. The rest are still safe and sound :p he loooves to collect things like this. it's a WOW! from ebay to fyi.

Then that is the 'ripped-open' Mr. Potato i was previously talking about. Wall-e, Astro Boy and power rangers. The background, JOKE BOOKS. i love Daddy's shelf book and collection shelf!<3
There are more. but i dont know where he puts it. it use to be in a box, which idk where the box is. apan, majal =.='

Btw, when daddy read the paper that Astro Boy is going to make a movie and it is in process. he tarus by the toy, as seen above few days later. DADDY ROCKS! \m/

tomorrow last mock exam. CHEERS! :D ciao.

i`m your staaar baby! :)

2009-07-11T01:39:00.000-07:00

I WANNA BE THE GIRL WHO SHINES YOUR WALK WAY! :D

i`m bored, as always. i got a story. i was di kaykay's zoo last two months. then ada this cage, was under construction. they wanted to add a new exhibit , i think. then there's this guy inside the 'under-construction' cage. so daddy and mummy main-mainkan cakap that guy is the new exhibit. daddy ask me to take his picture and blog about it. so here's the photo, bawah ani ;)

NEW EXHIBIT COMING SOON!

Be the first to see the new exhibit! wow, i`m a promoter. 8) but i think by the time you go there, he'll be hairy. i mean, he'll be a monkey, transformed. lmao. :p

7 years ago :)

2009-07-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

a time in the past that i wish to rewind is the accident moment, 7 years ago.
why does he has to go? i know he's old but why then? why not let him live a little longer? :/ the next 7 years without him never feels as happy as it was before.

i flashbacked to the days living in Salambigar. Sorry for the 'emo-ness' :)
anyway, school reopens tomorrow. dayum! mock is the next day. i`m not done yet. shoit. you might be wondering then why not study rather than blogging? HA! it's because im waaay too tired after doing maths 2. do you know that maths is like a creature that is capable of sucking your brains out but still let you live? yeaaaaps, my new theory. esehmen, joookes. i go nuts in history and geography, nucking futs, i tell you!!! =S

i was going to upload zul`s photo just to mention his presence. esehmen, phewit. lol. nyeh, actually cause he came to mind then i remembered i have a photo of him, so yeah. but failed to upload. shiz. imma try again latorr. ciao readers :D

2009-06-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

seriously? it feels like knowing that there's an exam coming the next morning. you know that feeling? the feeling when you tremble and keep trembling when its NOT the first time you have to face an exam? that's how felt but this time, my tremble wasn't due to fear but excitement. yeah, if you get that ;) no more him, no more sound, no more frown. apakan :p

anyways, i wanna get over this misery for the meantime since his so called 'girlfriend' found out and got pissed off and bla bla bla. so yeah, till she`s gone, i guess.

i`m off, ciao. MUEEZ HOT! :D

shine on me. :)

2009-06-26T23:47:00.000-07:00

i was berabisly BORED :( so edited this totally OOOLD photo.

Jiwang girlfriiiend hates bitchy scandal? ;)

2009-06-26T21:26:00.001-07:00

everytime i wake up, the face of that gentlemen covers my sight. then i'll feel like the happiness is coming back. but suddenly, it was all gone. like a reflection on a glass when shattered. pieces by pieces, it all vanished. bringing along my smile with them. and a frown came to replace it all, flashback starts coming, and it hurts like a knife poked straight to the heart. when will this end? i asked myself even when i know this empty soul doesn't have the answer. i stand waiting, counting the stars, wiping my tears, cleaning the mess, covering the pain but it never recover. memories didn't fade. and everytime i try running away from the past, it keeps pulling me back. never letting me to escape. so i stayed, let time be the judge, let things go wild as it wants to be. cause i know, forever is near. and when it comes, every misery will wash away.

Lawa? Lawa? :p i made it, i was bored but lastlast, got tired so didn't make it long. let it be like that.

currently listening to Love Games - Lady Gaga. my favourite right now :D bah i'm out. oh yeah, schoolah is coming, pack, i'm not ready. especially not for qualifying =/ okay ciao.

i`m missing a piece of me (:

2009-06-11T02:39:00.000-07:00

2 days of schoolah then its the not so awesome holiday! :D because i have to finish the whole lower secondary syllabus and bla bla bla. but hey, i'll still have fun. trust me ;) im gonna miss my friends though. this saturday afternoon, go camping! i can't wait ih. first time kaliah, still in sakai level. im going to Bukit Keramunting, i have no idea where is it but who gives a damn anyway.

holiday homeworksssss tabal macam bonet kerita. NOT! macam tabal tangan saya saja lah ;D tonight tuition. T.T boriiiiiiiiiing. bah i`m out now. ciao. :)

among the best things in life.

2009-06-06T19:49:00.000-07:00

hey, wassup rockers? i had fun yesterday, went MALL. \m/
watched Night at the museum 2. Masa di toilet, ada two wannabees.
girl1; "you got perfume?"
girl2; "nada"
girl1; "ah?" *spoil! hahah*
girl2; "nope"
girl1; "oh"
girl1; *comes out of toilet* omg! my hair, lame. *with a bitchy voice and touches her hair*

so me and khadijah went out and laughed our asses off while saying them stuffs like 'wannabees'
damn, bitch wah them atu. then, masa the movie kan abis, i can't stand to go to the toilet but si khadijah ni inda mau ah. BAHI =.=' so i went alone. the person yang jaga cinema atu said, 'hai' hahaha. khadijah cakap ia handsome. for me? nyeh, okay lagi Si Jubs 8b jk, i can't see his face clearly wah! then, KBOX! spent 5dollars sana. but used up only 5 tokens, in another word, sang five song. i have five extra tokens. biarlah. next time lagi. basically, fun. (: ciao.

2009-06-04T19:55:00.000-07:00

why would i want to wake up when dreaming is better?
ema likes blessthefall`s blonde guitarist. but most of all, ema loves Blake so much that she doesn't want to wake up and go through reality cause her dreams is all about BLAKE :D

i`m your past (:

2009-06-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

lisan was ooolrite ;) teacher laughed her ass off due to my fucking answer. T.T

i`m ema alwhee/azmahn. i are baboon. you is 'sai'. random. bored.
safiah is now a 'i-want-to-shit-and-you-eat-my-shit-in-hockian(sp?)-language' pro. lmao. hazwan mc-ed me since... a long time of no contact. miss me, do you? i do too. i have tution later. i`m heading to mall tomorrow noon. asked for fifty but mumy said, 'i never own a hundred when i was a kid. learn from the past' so i said, 'i learn from your past is that you wasted your kid and teenage life, so im not going to follow that. i`m a future billionaire' and she shuts. speechless in sight. waddapack. watching nights at the museum 2 tomorrow, booked the ticket so mum is forced to give me the kaching. $.$

yipee. i`m off. have fun losers (:

today and the coming days...

2009-05-26T01:23:00.000-07:00

"everything may not be perfect but at least we tried." -Dear Juliet; lullaby ♥

Last sentence of his message was, "ema, can you wait for me?"
i will. i will. mark my words =') i do not promise. ~~if you torn my heart, i`ll give you worse.~~ but i will wait, as long as you still love me (:

i`m still having friggin' fever. now accompanied with bloody nose bleed. had the worst, i repeat WORST nose bleed everrrrrr. argh. seriously. no! hold your laughter! or just shut up. don't speak up. i know it's embarassing and bla bla bla. SO SHOOO!

Today? hmmm. basically just study, study and study. time geo, went to the library, NO STUDY. woo hee! waddapack. anyway. then. safiah was asking about songs then i think she got pissed off so blabbed out nonsense.

soph; kamu tau lagu "nisa baboon, ema pun"?
ema; inda. tapi ada lagu "nisa baboon" yang "ema pun" nada.
amal; awu! penyanyi yang safiah lamez atu kan?
ema; AWU WAH!
soph; WOI! kamu inda updated eh. aku yang lagi updated so aku lah yang tau.
ema and amal; *knuckle touch*
soph; bukan penyanyi nya amal kaling kan?
ema; manada. atu lyricsnya by amal kaling kaliah.
soph; awu awu. *knuckle touch with ema*
ema; eh penerbit nya rez......... eh rez apa ah?
soph; eh. REZ JUBOR ITAM!
all five; *laughed our asses off*
rez; eh. buruk banar eh aku punya ah!
soph; bah jubor merah macam baboon tah.
rez; anak damitz saja wah.
ema; inda. pemes dah.
soph; hmmmm. apatah.
ema; rez bau taie?
the rest; *laughing like crazy*

then it goes on until we found the perfect name for rez. and we have made up the intro for the song. we've praticed the intro. music and video clip maybe would be created tomorrow afternoon if each can stay late =) but not to be spread due to not good content of lyrics. thanks. but will be posted to *******`s blog when finished. so visit that to discover more. ;D

imma go off now. ciao losers.

Life and beyond it.

2009-05-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

how does it feel to have a real one? They said that an adopt/step one's love is never the same like a real one's love. I wanna feel how's it like to have a real one. Is life gonna be this hard? Or is it gonna be slightly or waaay easier? I wanna have a real one. But not at this time of life. I wanna restart my life and let life flow living by the side and protection of a real one. Is my real one in trouble searching for me now? Or does my real one actually don't care? How is my real one gonna find me if my real one never sees or don't even know my name? =/

p/s; no name or genders are mention so don't bother figuring it out. I didn't give out any clues there [;

Missing you is my weakness.

2009-05-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

It`s normal if a girl scribble about their problem when they got one. So I`m gonna do the same as I AM a girl. ;]

Hey baybeh, i saw you. I saw you walk past me with both hands in your pocket. I saw you with a friend. I saw you standing near the wall talking to him. You were in blue and i was in brown. I saw you turning your head round and round. I saw you did that a million times. It was like you are searching for something or someone. Were you even thinking of me? You told me you are gonna come there if i do too. You smiled your widest cute smile but not looking at me. When it`s time to go, I felt like i`ve missed the golden chance. The chance to meet you, for the very first time. Baybeh, i know i`ve told you a million times but imma repeat this until you really really really understand what i`m trying to tell you. i love you for all the things you do, and all the things you made me do. i love you ;]

It was not so fun di mall tadi pasal not enough time. We did the commerce survey then arcade sing a song then home. But atleast he was there, thanks babe [;

one day older than yesterday :)

2009-04-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

O.o it`s today people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS. LOL :P

nadawah, saya hari jadi today. i`ll post the people who greeted me karang along with photos of the gifts cause now, i`m otw to KFC, uncle`s treat bayby! bah ciao ;D

in a fairytale.

2009-04-20T06:04:00.002-07:00

3 days... batah jua? i wanna go swimming the afternoon after sports day IF my dad suruh. with my cousin. join? ;D

I WANT A HOODIE JACKET! HOODIE JACKET! HOODIE JACKET! (L)
i want watch yang coloursnya rugged.

birthday wishes, they`re made once a year. So, fulfill for me please?

then everything changes.

2009-04-16T04:25:00.000-07:00

Like father, like son (Y)

Having a gooooood time :)

Similar to "Dora the explorer", doesn`t she?

~~p/s: grabbed from kido`s blog ;)~~

2009-04-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

Oh, 8 days to go. Time felt like ticking so slow. =S at least that day will come, though only once a year. i`m on love with present, get me one. Wanna greet me? At exactly 12am on 23rd will be the most ideal time. My favourite question: "Apa kau mau?" LOL :P Bah here's the list.

1. iPOD touch screen
2. New phone, apa saja asal symbian ;p
3. Sneakers, converse ah! yang white or pink.
4. That silver sparkling shoe!
5. KFC eh, nah ordernya;
=> 2 pieces chicken, mashed potato, wedges tapi not the one with mustards and mayonnaise.
6. Guylian chocolate, no dark chocolate ah.
7. Famous Amos, flavour: 'No Nut Chocolate Chip' ;)
8. Pizza tuna?
9. Big teddy bear, the bigger the better, pink if possible. :P
10. New watch eh? warna pink ah.
11. New bag, whatever, janji rugged.
12. Anything that you think will put a smile on me.

p/s: wanna get me chocolates? reminder: im choosy with chocolates so pilih yang famous. like, any type of kinder, ferrero, guylian, seychel, DONT GET ME PATCHI (n)

2009-04-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

Graphics

shine my walk way.

2009-04-02T19:37:00.000-07:00

"everyday is like a nightmare. cause every time our eyes meet, you have no idea who am i. in the cyber world, we`re close, only god knows how much. i have to face everyday hurt by my one fault."

apakan, EMO! HAHA.
anyway, yesterday, kami kan masuk cca half an hour late. selalunya fifteen minutes so kami kan extends. Sekalinya.... Ckg Haiseh meround. *toink so kami, aku, nisa, waf, vien and faj eksen lah macam setaie ngambil barang tarus masuk cca. the ma5 guys yang lepak-lepak pun kacut! LOL :p then ada a few girls kana soal, "girls, where should you be?" cikgu makin close dengan aku, gosh, bedegup-degup jantung i. HAHA. laju-laju lah ku bawa beg ku menuju cca. Meninggalkan si nisa di belakang. jahat aku ah. Well, she`s a big girl, so she should know what to do. Di cca, dui, cikgu balum ada, camping lah di luar d&t workshop. Pastu masa cca, amai tangan. Ngacau lappy si fatin, main game. Either Sir Zaki or Sir Johnny, "main game tia pulang... Bah laju!" Fatin, "Sir cakap siapa main game, ia kaling." HAHA! lame... siapa peduli? main game masih. Then dengar durang kan potong kayu pakai machine. So, dengan hati yang sangat sakai, kami aga lah. Me and nisa. Si nisa, banar-banar ia bekeraja, sampai baju nya paling kamah antara kami. HAHAHA! Pastu ada tia ma5 guys melintas. Bukan apa, kan minum free di tank damit ah, like they always do. Selalu tu durang minum di sana. Ganti-ganti lagi tu, cali eh mun di liat. Then lapas cca, lunch. Otw ke cafe, SELUAR SI NISA TESANGKUT ARAH DRAIN GRILLS!!!!! HAHAHA. memalukn bangsa dan negara tah banar. Lunch, then science. Lapas tu, ngacau urang dating! Amal and her superman. Durang dating, aku main lappy si shafiei. Masa balik, aku tah yang paling akhir balik. Durang semua balik kul 4. aku, pkul 5.30 Nasib ada si hisyam. Dengar ia sama si nawir becerita. Cali-cali ceritanya. Ngam 5.30, ia balik ikut bas. I was loner mahn. He was like playing peek-a-boo with me. So i was just smiling. Then, YEAAAY! mum`s here. BOOO! aku balik! apan :p

bah, that`s all.

shut me up.

2009-03-28T03:26:00.000-07:00

yeah do it! IF you can.

i miss you :/ ~~i`m not into you, i just simply miss you.~~
-with lotsa loves.

not yet in the mood to go to school!!!!

don`t blame me, i just wanna have fun. this will be random, im confused. My life`s shaking. Everything is. I don`t know where is that and this, i don`t know who is he nor she, i don`t know everything. Is this just a dream or am i really experiencing it? Will this get worse or am i at the worst stage? Is life really this bad? Or am i just unlucky? Every human beings will have their day, they said so. But i don`t see the truth in that line. Help me! Pull me out of this misery! Show me happiness! Make me happy! Make my life a better place!

Though some stupid tragedy came by, i promise, I'll cover that tidal wave from washing you away. For every moment spent together, is the moment i treasure. I'd never regret loving you cause as i recall, our memories were enough to give me strength to move on. unfortunately it also is enough to pull me down.

you could simply make me fall in love with a smile,
i love you ball :)

in a snap, i`ll be on top of the world (;

2009-03-28T00:18:00.000-07:00

How`s your holiday peeps? "oh how i wish it was longer....." *sigh i know, i have the same feeling too. It felt very short. When they said 10 days, sounds so long, i thought it was. But no fun, no mall, no shopping, no overseas visit, no home alone freedom. Well, it seems shorter than it sound, waaay shorter. Dad`s around, can`t sing out loud like a crazy dudette. banar, banar. Don`t act like you understand what i`m saying cause i`m so sure you don`t. when i say fun, i mean crazy moments, with my jengs, not an insane loner! ); plus, si ball isn`t around. oh god knows how much i miss diaaaa! yes, i miss him. he`s at kayL. oh, miserable holiday, so much. 2 days to go then its fun fun, except the studying part. But when it comes to friends, nothing else is better. i love my friends so much. I know, im not suppose to be too in love with that status cause by next year, we`ll be separated. Unless luck`s on our side then, yeah, you should get what im saying.

Much blogs ain`t updated. oh, boring... No entertainment. i`ve gotta admit, i love reading blogs. Don`t you guys? (; Oh fyi, Muaz Othman, ma5H of my college, is added to my hottie list. weee. If any you guys wanna offer his email to me, the answer we`ll be, 'yes please.' bah thanks. :D

stars!<333

2009-03-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

I almost believe sky was the limit, till I heard about the stars.
How amazing they are, how high they were.
My heart was captured, I`m sure I was in love.
That very night, the brightest star ever approach me and whispered, "i love you too..."
I fell asleep and dreamt about that particular star. Oh, that love feeling never fades away.
I still love you star!

2009-03-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

Lawa ni this video (y) watch more of this series on youtube peeps.

bah have a fun Holiday y`all. ;) Jgn lupa homeworks..... a week to go before school reopens. =S yaaawn.

HOLIDAAAAY! :D

2009-03-20T06:05:00.001-07:00

Funny Stuff & MySpace Layouts

Ada this someone, suruh add photos daily to my post depending on my mood or something i just found pasal he said my blog nice to read but not interesting. apakan tu? so thanks yah darl (; i`ll consider the opinion. Till here.

HOLIDAY IS (Y) but i miss aaaai. He`s in KL. Kami inda contact since Wednesday );

i want you, BALL! ;)

2009-03-19T18:06:00.000-07:00

i wanted to approach you but you turn and walked with her.
i wanted to whisper to your ears but you turn your face to her and started laughing.
i wanted to play around with your hair but you stand up and left me.
i wanted to text you but your phone was with her.
i wanted to call you instead but she answered so i closed.
i wanted to see you after school but she saw you first.
so one day i left you,
but you came to me and confessed,
you hold my hand and kissed it.
so since that day, i learned not to give up for something i really wanted.

dedicated to zeeyah pasal ia suka love poem yang AKU BUAT! :P

Baie bin Babi! (apakan, sama jua tu :p)

2009-03-18T01:05:00.000-07:00

Triple 'B' rugged eh. apakan. mau tau cerita kah? jangantah kali. Aku kan mengexpress kemarahan ku ni. Mun ku ckp face-to-face, macam cakap dengan angin wah, ia inda mendangar, aku taip saja ih. Makin jua confident.

OW-EM-GEE! Usul mu ah, dapan cikgu, macam urang humble, ayu, kekampungan(lame+poklen) tapi di belakang, macam baie, perasan ketua, walaupun monitress for two years, kau pikir kau atu teacher`s pet kah? walaupun cikgu-cikgu suka kau! Tapi kawanmu? SEMUA BANCI BUI! Lain lah urang yang inda sekelas dengan kau. Pasal kau di luar class CONTROL AYU! Tapi poklen. Jiwang berabisan. Macam babu-babu yang tua-tua ah. Ketuahan ui! Aku kah yang fitnah kau? aku kah yang menuduh kau complain arah cikgu atu? AKU KAH? Kau tuduh aku behapa? Kan balas dendam? Nasib jua cikgu atu mesti di hormati, mun inda, abis dah ku lawani tu cikgu ah! Demi menahan kebenaran. Kami betanya ganya if kau yang gitau cikgu atau bukan. If safiah yang mengungkit pasal dulu-dulu, KENAPA AKU SAMA SI NISA PULANG KAU TUDUH? Nah, kau yang fitnah atau kami tu? CUBATAH! kima banar eh! Mun air matamu membari kasian kau pikir, KAU SALAH BERABIS! Air mata ku ani, sanang bah kan d keluarkan. Tapi aku bukan pengacut macam kau! Aku inda menangis supaya cikgu pikir aku banar tapi aku berjuang. Aku inda mengadu arah cikgu tapi aku balas arah urang yang cari pasal dengan aku atu sendiri. Mun sudah kau basar, inda kan kau kan payah-payah ke sekulah mengadu arah cikgu masih? Atu inda bedikari namanya, mun kau inda tau! Cubatah belajar selesaikan masalah sendiri. Jangantah di bawa-bawa cikgu ah. Tampar ni muka ku ah mun kau banar-banar inda pengacut. Cubatah. Mun inda berani di skulah, aga aku di rumahku. Inda ku takut tu bapaku atau mamaku ah. Mun aku rasa aku banar, aku berani. Mun aku salah, aku ngakun lah! ani bukan aku yang fitnah, buat apa ku takut. Inda kau nampak tadi aku jawab soalan cikgu. Cikgu ganya yang inda mau mendangar penjelasanku. Kali ani nasib mu, kali lain, AWAS KAU! Mun sampai ku ngamuk, be parut tah tu muka mu ah uleh meja tu. Pigang cakapku ah. Inda ku main-main ni.

(accompanid by infinite times hundred of angers)

you stole my heart, baby.

2009-03-16T02:48:00.000-07:00

oh fuck, talur ih text si wann ni. Pikir banar then panya lagu. HAHAH! Made me glad dah then, *teonk*

This post is random. Just spitting out my crumpled thoughts.
oh that bitch. life is miserable right now. =S alley`s hot. i miss you, ball. afieq hensem (a) :) amal lucky. soph, stalker! :p i got mee goreng`s number dari soph. Nisa, last word, "i`m sick of this" and walk away. I AM SELFISH, ive gotta admit.

I put myself before people. I raise my price when lots want me. I`m not desperate for a boyfriend, i`d rather not have right now cause .........*adelerr*, i miss the moments with my ex, i 'like' hazwan. Translate 'like' bisai-bisai. Cause accidents in translating that word may cause misunderstood. My phone is going Nucking Futs. Like ali`s badge say. I need to get ali his kinder. HE brought skittles to school. (y)(y) Merci too but untuk Dal. I like his drawing. Izzat Yunos from 5H hot, hot and hot ih. Im curious siapa 'beng' cause ball and wann say his name. I wanna go mall dengan ditch. Holiday is coming, YEAYY. So here is where it ends.
Btw, Qawiy BITCHY ASSHOLE! D;

you treated like an angel but i was an asshole to you

2009-03-03T23:36:00.000-08:00

to assholes, i ain`t taken so please, stop spreading rumors! to bitches, hands off my za, y`all never gonna take him away from my hands! believe me.
i was going to upload photos sebenarnya but, ERROR! ah f***, shaoit, b****! awu, i`m swearing. don`t say, "eh inda baik sweraing" cause i know y`all will do that if sudah sasak berabis walaupun cakap "I WON`T" i won`t believe it.
bah, i lost my mood. bah okay, i`m outta here.

2009-03-03T23:12:00.000-08:00

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i could swear, i did copy paste that while waiting for the commercial break to end :P zeeyah! friendship never ends wah ihh

i`m yours, love :)

2009-03-02T00:08:00.000-08:00

i`m falling for you, catch me. yeah, i am. i know, lots will not believe me cause i can`t forget the past. all about eek-ball. at least, i`m putting an effort to do so. i`m exposing that i`m falling for someone, so BELIEVE ME! between me and iqbal, we`re just friends. we`re just not meant to be, i guess. well, kami BEST friends kaliah. kan ball?

okay, today, staybacked until 3. Did a b.melayu test 12.50-1.15. short test only.
then lepak dengan afieq, hakim, shahrizul and wafi. afieq went home awal. then i forced hakim to buy me lunch. malasku turun baaaaah! Sudah ku nyamal barutah ia membalikan, capi! the art peeps ada class 2-3 so i was left alone, wafi balik at 2. Mirza came by, so kami lepak. we went to Haziq L`s class, watch them play with penutup butul. mirza joined them, CALI! :D then ada this guy, the guy i`m falling for. we hangout in my class, then masa kan keluar, he shut the door tarus, and makin close ni.

he whispered: "will ema be ****`s once again?"

me: "erm, can i answer that tomorrow?" *wide grin*

him: "yeah"

so yeah, i`ll have to think about it. DO DECISIONS & DON`T REGRET!
NOT my motto but what i`d ike to do. apakan!
then masa kami walking, i thought i heard him say, "i love ema" but i didn`t reply pasal takut misheard. bri malu jua tu! awu ja? jaaa.....

geo, fun funny! Winnie Belacan Sdn Bhd. HAHAH! padantah kau bebau lapas balik keraja! :P
then ada tia, Fatimah Belacan Sdn Bhd. eh, cari pasal cikgu ah! inda apa, i`m ema. :D
(mantang-mantang buku geo warna hijau, hijau tia jua text ku)

zaaa`s :)

KABOOM!

2009-02-25T22:54:00.000-08:00

Some random photos from qawiy`s freakin camera. from his old camera wah. he`s new one is (y)! imma ask for one if i get 8a1s :D the one like abang hanif`s but a little smaller. lawa roite? i know!

photographed by qawiy. candid ni but lawa jua. candid shots are usually the best. whoo agrees?

again, by qawiy and candidly. this isn`t really lowa but it looks emo! HAHAH!

nice eh? the shot is lawa but the model, NOT! messy lagi tu hairnya ah... but still, i love the shot. unique right? siapa jua punya idea tu.... *kiraikirai but then, i didnt capture it myself. self timer kali or was it imai? entah, i dont remember ehh. bah im out. i wanna upload photos lagi di facebook and en`s blog. bah visit ah! babai.

2009-02-23T04:38:00.000-08:00

001.Real name → Siti Nurfatimah
002.Nickname(s) → Ema, Fatimah.
004.Male or female → F, duh!
005.Elementary → Little Stars, St. Andrews.
006.Middle School → Science College.
007.College → alum pulang but i think, SC.
008.Hair color → shining black :P
009.Long or short → in between.
010.Loud or Quiet → LOUD!
011.Sweats or Jeans → jeans.
012.Phone or Camera → both?
013.Health freak → n-ah. worrying about health is wasting time.
014.Drink or Smoke → SAY NO TO BOTH :D i`m a goodie girl, HAHAH.
015.Do you have a crush on someone → just a crush? H! not love aite.
016.Eat or Drink → both laaahh!
017.Piercings → ears. i want lips!
018.Tattoos → NIL.

HAVE YOU EVER?
019.Been in an airplane --> yeah, siapa inda pernah ah?!
020.Been in a relationship → twice.
021.Been in a car accident → nope and never want to.
022.Been in a fight → yeah, but last a few days ONLY.

FIRSTS:
023.First piercing → ears.
024.First best friend → Hannah and Caryle.
025.First award → outstanding student (kindergarten pulang to....)
026.First crush → MALIK. first guy im in a relationship with.
027.First pet → cat. in the old days with grandpa :')
028.First big vacation → entah ihh.

LASTS:
029.Last person you IMed to → hakim.
030.Last person you texted → hazwan.
031.Last person you watched a movie with → hanan, zee, hafiz and izzahoho.
032.Last food you ate → kfc chicken (L)
033.Last movie you watched → Madagascar 2. adikku pasang tiap hari ah!
034.Last song you listened to → Love song- sara bareilles(sp?)
035.Last thing you bought → Fun boy :DDD nyamaaaaaaan!
036.Last person you hugged → Nisa pasal i was sad yesterday. she`s the best. i love you bestie, to the max.

FAVES:
037.Food → CHOCOLATE(L)
038.Drinks → california grill`s hot choco, express`s orange juice, coke ZERO.
039.Hobby → shop, shop, shop. texting and talk on the phone for hours.
040.Books → Sophie Kinsella`s.
041.Music → LOTS bayby!
042.Flower → rose, lawa wah!
043.Colors → PINK, damn much!
044.Movies → entah eh, banyak wah.
045.Positions → ah? inda ku paham ih. i wanna be CENTER OF ATTENTION. (the way i understand the question :P)
046.Subjects → Maths!

IN 2008.....I
047. smile
048. laughed
049. cry
050. fell in love with a bestfriend but at last, loved him as a bestfriend.
051. got scolded.
052. created facebook
053. first known the 'ganstard'
054. hanged out with syam di mall for the first time.
055. call iqbal for hours on the phone.
056. celebrated the best birthday ever! :') tears of joy.
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CURRENTLY:
067.Eating → nope
068.Drinking → nope
069.I'm about to → sleep. its 9 plus...
070.Listening to → love song on my phone (addicted maaahn ;D)
071.Plans for today → tidur? and eat.
072.Waiting for → hazwan to online or atleast explain why he mc-ed me.

YOUR FUTURE:
073.Want kids? → yes but dont wanna give birth.
074.Want to get married? → no.
075.Careers in mind → ROCKSTAR. singer is enough.
076.Lips or eyes → you mean?
077.Shorter or taller → taller laaahh. im quite shorrt.
078.Romantic or spontaneous → spontaneously romantic.
079.Nice stomach or nice arms → both. no shabby arms. no fat stomach.
080.Sensitive or loud → LOUD!
081.Hook-up or relationship → entah ih.
082.Trouble-maker or hesitant →

HAVE YOU EVER:
083.Lost glasses/contacts → my eyes are perfect :DD
084.Ran away from home → once? but got caught half way.
085.Hold a gun/knife for self defense → capital NO!
086.Killed somebody → million times. jk. OF COURSE NOT and will never.
087.Broken someone's heart → yeap.
088.Been arrested → eeeeeeh, inda eh.
089.Cried when someone died → once.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090.Yourself → awu.
091.Miracles → DEFINITELY.
092.Love at first sight → sadang.
093.Heaven → duhh!
094.Santa Claus → kinda.
095.Sex on the first date → nope.
096.Kiss on the first date → yeapp. pasal it happened to someone i know.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → hazwan?
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → cematulah.
099. Do you believe in God → duh.
100. Post as 100 Truths and tag to 10 people plus the one who tagged you!!
(im not tagged. done for fun)

just one touch baby, one.

2009-02-21T17:47:00.001-08:00

imma post some pictures from qawiy`s camera laterr. right now, i need breakfast.

oh btw, ada orang mistaken wah. i dont love h bah! i mean, i love him pasal he could make my day. that's it. not more. but i dont know about him cause nicknya few days ago still ada 'e!' which dulu he said, 'baguslah if kau terasa.' hmmmph. i`m capable of breaking hearts as i grow up, but i never intend to. please, i love you guys, yeah, the group i called 'gangstard' but i`m not serious. it`s just certain things that make me love ya AS A FRIEND. bah ciao. take not aite. :)

boredom kills, agree?

2009-02-18T01:21:00.000-08:00

again, im not tagged. im doing this FOR FUN ;D

1.If someone says we need to talk,what runs through ur mind?-
- if its my boifie, he's dumping me or he's jealous about something.
-if its my friends, they're wanting to share their secrets.
-if its my mum, nyeh, imposibble.
-who else?

2.Are you in a good mood?
- yeah, kinda.

3.What made you sad today?
- just maybe one small, not so important thing. he left his friedns and walked with a girl, in front of me. well maybe he didnt know i was around or maybe that girl force him to. whatever it is, im sad plus jealous.

4.Ditched school to do something more fun?
- ah? dont get ya~

5.Are you okay with making fool of yourself?
- yeap, im always making myself looking like a fool. kan people?

6.What was the first thing you did this morning?
- check my phone, as always and tried mc-ing him but unreachable.

7.Can you honestly saying that things are running smoothly for you?
- in certain cases, yes.

8.Do you currently miss someone?
- awu, dyy! lama dah inda kau text aku ah~

9.Are you better at maths or english?
- maths, keli.

10.In the past week have you felt stupid?
- i feel stupid everyday cause i know i am.

11.Were you happy when you woke up today?
- sorta, not really.

12.Do you know the words to the song/songs on your blog?
- a little. my blog's song lawa kaliah ;D

13.Last thing received in mail?
- from facebook.

14.Besides this,what are you doing?
-watching videos in youtube and readin photo comments in facebook.

15.When was the last time something bothered you?
- entah ah, i think tadi pagi cause i left fail science!

16.Have you ever fallen asleep but still on telephone?
-urm, never. my phone long phone calls are fun so i dont get asleep.

17.When was the last time you cried?
- few days back, cant remember why tho.

18.Have you ever told someone you're okay when you werent?
- yeap, and the last time was masa chating with dyy.

19.Are you fighting with someone?
- no, na-ah.

20.Today,would you rather go back a week,or go forward a week?
- forward keli. if go back wards two months ago, i would :P

21.Where was the last place you went beside your house?
- school!

22.Do you know the last person you were in the car with other than family?
- nisa keli.

23.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
- i lasted in a 4years relationship. why cant i in a 6months? but make sure that guy also can do it.

24.How many months untill your birthday?
-2 more months! YEAAAAAY! its on the 23rd april, fyi so dont forget my presents bayby! :D

25.Are you sleepy?
- kinda but i cant sleep cause laparr!

26.Is cheating ever okay?
- never was.

27.Can you whistle?
- yeap, yeap and im quite proud of that. (lame? idc!)

28.Waiting on anything?
- yeap, waiting for him to reply my mesej :)

29.What shoes did you wear today?
- a sport shoes with a pink, black and white on it.

30.Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didnt expect to?
- awu, si zul! HAHAH. never thought we could be in a relationship tho 2months only.

31.Would you rather your partner have a gorgeous smile or gorgeous eyes?
- both? but on priority, its the smile cause its easier to notice and it'll be more adorable to lay an eye on.

32.Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
- awu, in a wallet di ugama :D

33.Are you a patient person?
- NO, im so not!

34.Is it important to you that your friends like the person you're dating?
- never happen so, entah!

35.Are you in love?
- MADLY in love maaaaahn :D bangga lagi tu eh. dengan iqbal fikri kaliah!

i`m not over you, 16!

2009-02-16T00:17:00.001-08:00

i do this for fun. not that im being tagged or whatever okay?

What is your current ringtone?
- live your life : rihanna ft TI

What is your current wallpaper?
- my own gambar, me smiling then captured dari bawah.

Do you own a picture phone?
- yeap.

If so, what was the last picture you took?
- ME! vain? awu but i deleted it.

Go to your inbox and type what the 10th text message says?
- my sweetheart, iqbal: "kau bckp dgn c sam. and kau inda lyn td aku 'psstt' arah kau. manada kiut. luan jua sampai angan2. then kau btapuk kn lps abis angan2 ah? Hahaha."

How many contacts do you have on your phone?
- 217 sontacts in phone, alum lg sim tu...

Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
- pizza hut! ;D

What service do you have?
- DST3G

At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
- 5/5, in other words, full.

Who's on your speed dial numbers?
- nada.

Do you have voicemail?
- my digi sim, yes but dst, nope.

How many contacts do you have that start with J- Who are they?
- Jul
-Jolibee

Who do you call the most?
- first, iqbal. second, mumy.

How many text messages do you get a month?
- about 20 the least. about 50-60 the most.

Can you send pictures?
- motorola, no. n70, yeap. ad ive sent to haziq and asyraf, jul too.

What are the first 2 digits to your number?
- 86

Go to your SENT texts..what does the first one say?
- to iqbal (again) : "Iqbal, hello. How are you? Lama inda contact. Tuition kau yaw? Dimana? Aku start tuition krg ptg.... buring! :("

What about the 15th?
- to iqbal: "Aku mimpi pasal kau lstnite. Mau aku cerita? Kisahnya cemani.... Aku tickle kau then kau cubit pipiku. Dlm mimpiku pun kau cute ah!!! Hahah. Bah eh, tc"
(he just read this afternoon)

Who's the last person that you called?
- i mc-ed iqbal.

Last person that texted you?
- iqbal :)

Last person you added to your contacts?
- hazwan. which was months ago!

How many minutes are on your plan?
- wtf?

Go down to your 5th contact, who is it?
- Afieq Rosle

Wanna give out your number?
- you want it? nah; 1-800-no-way !!! mc me ah~

2009-02-15T23:49:00.000-08:00

i want DVDs, DVDs and lots more DVDs. cause my afternoon is boring. excluding tuesday and saturday. why? cause i got extra classes on those days. eh, NO! include those back cause days with extra class is considered boring too, right? you'll abso-bloody-loutely will agree, im sure! i wanna hang out di mall or someone's house. just not mine. i wanna watch whatever channel on astro. i mean it! i'm sorta back-dated in movies. i love cartoons. thats a result of not watching enough movies but watched TOO MUCH cartoons. like Madaghooha? not hooha, 'ascar'. see, told ya i watch too much cartoons. i enjoyed it tho, very much pasal cali. but now, my mind is immature, seriously. i find lame things funny. LOL :P

right now, chatting with beloved sixteen. you know him! yeah, that sweety i love the most :) im bored, so bored. bah im blank. ciao.

stars, could you hear me whisper?

2009-02-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

browsed the net and found cool stuffs:
you had your dreams, i had mine. you had your fears, i was fine.
you showed me what i could find when two worlds collide.
-from somewhere in the internet.

i spent my nights crying, time after time.
i spent my days lying, saying i was fine.

my creation baby! :D
when i left you, you chased me.
when i trust you, you ditched me.

got this from one of my best friends, groar. oops, it`s graah :)
there's this girl, droppin' her lines,
so i gotta find a way to make you mine.
they said that hook ups take time,
so im gonna take my time.
i would wait a million years just to kiss your lips,
tell me when you're ready so we can take a trip.
anyplace, anywhere you wanna go.
all you gotta do is let me know.
with a snap of my finger, then baby we're there.
i just wanna show you how much i care.
i can show you happiness and you can have it forever.
and bring you to the place that you never been before.

i love you, h!

there are lots of photographs by qawiy. but malasku upload. his pendrive is still with me too. i forgot to give it back. nevermind, tomorrow saja. im watching little britain in youtube. it`s (y)! bah bubye.

f***ked up maaahn!

2009-02-09T00:25:00.000-08:00

i feel like wanting to be the center of attention today so my post today will be centered. pasal kan.... si h, mc-ed me for the first time ever. we usually mesej or chat saja. now, he mc-ed. but i havent reply tho. karangtah ehh. ;D love you h, like, BRABIS.....

i found this two blogs wahh. i find it Very Extremely entertaining. inda buring membaca bui. mau-mau? nahhh; omgzxoxo.blogspot.com and thehatecolumn.blogspot.com. originally for bruneians. paham? baca dulu baru kamu paham tu! bah i is malas kan blogging pasal headache. awu, damamku masih, alum baik but getting better. nah saja gmbr-gmbr lama-lama to fill in this post.

my belated birthday. my second suprised birthday party. yg first atu lagi suprised lah pasal this time ada urang tesasul but aku curious. but, i thought inda jadi. sudah akhir2 majlis...... ADA TIA. tarus dengan my beloved uncle's belated birthday jua. yang baju hijau atu, my best cousin si kha-ditch-uh. yang baby cute atu, ainaa's junior boifie. thats what ainaa called him :P cute brbis yaw. the cutest guy in kami punya whole family. yatah dadynya perasan kan mau anak yg tersangat cute atu masuk dlm gambar ani. hahah. jk uda! =P

the family of heroes kaliah \m/ aku cat woman! adiku bini-bini kan mau jadi one of the disney princess tapi, thats not consider heroes anymore iatah kami entitled ia; wonder woman! :D

baby; cuteee! banarr.
older; cute masih ehh.
older lagi; oh my fucking gawd! baulah banarr. really, i could hardly handle him. he even silently pinch me. AAAAAAAAHHH!

my little adik, yg dalam pelampung ah, first time, ke swimming pool. adiku bini2 atu, ia ganya inda basah, takut air!!!! HAHAH.

h! be mine? NOT! :P

2009-02-07T00:20:00.000-08:00

i`m still at school..... bored! really. using nisa`s stupid lappy! no, it`s not stupid sebenarnya but i`m fucking bored, iatah i`m swearing everything. nisa pun tejangkit! :P she just said, "i don`t fucking care!" HAHAH. kami vaining pasal kami bored. d-oh! tadi makan pizza with asyraf, hazwan, nisa and qawiy. awwwwww, H! his nick yesterday; "123456. (R) e! limaanam" esehh. terasa ku eh. lol. cali......NOT! qawiy ucap aku sarcastic tadi pasal aku fake laugh. geddit?

i'll post gambar-gmbar kami soon. right now, kan balik. good bye. so long :D

photograph your life

2009-02-05T15:10:00.000-08:00

'this post was supposed to be a month ago but rupanya alum ku post. saved as draft. so now, im postin it'

Some of the photos hasil dari science discussion stayback. :P my mum saw this and went like, "eh, kamu stayback kan behapa kan?" so i said science and tarus gambar-gambar. she was like, tsk tsk tsk.HAHAH. kami so the fucking vain mahn!

macam aku paling bida. nisa lowa. macam hantu. hahah.

kami sakai! eh scratch that. kami proud of our school tapi macam tebalik namanya ahh. eh bukan lagi macam, andang dah tebalik!

looks like arranged from big to small, kan kan?

this is coolio. tapi if nampak until neck, it'll be better. roite?

aaawww. lawa ehh! dyy saw this and cakap, "kau paling hot! urang lain nada shape, kau ganya. phewitt!" HAHAH. thanks dyy!

now, THIS is my faaavourite! i loooove it. like, BRABIS... its damn lawa. siapa agree? *thousand of people angkat tangan* esehh.

nisa likes this one cause masing-masing bagi muka cute. kan nis? nisa bagi muka manja! aaawww. this one lawa jugak but yang di atasnya, lawa like KABOOM! apakan.

enough photos? well, thats not all. ada lagi but still arah nisa. she havent bagi to me. after all, kami gambar kai lappy nya. asal takan enter, ada tia timer tarus iatah thousand kami capture! i love wa fuckers, like, BRABIS! :DDDD

i'd prefer my looks in photos

2009-02-04T05:32:00.000-08:00

i love to take photos but i always delete most. when i fell in love with my photo, then only i don't delete em. i decided to upload the photos yang i fell in love with =P kalau fail, inda tah ku tau tu.

took few days ago. i looove it. i stole that pose from a korean girl. and oh, it looks almost the same. the skin colour, clothes, background, and teddy bear make it different.

oh, i love the, urm, diamond kah tu namanya? but urangnya tatap bida. AGREE? :D

i dont find this attractive but the pout i made is lain from any other pout i ever made. lol :P

there's actually more but, i havent pindahkan. still in my phone. tomorrow afternoon vaining with wernas. so, i guess more photos are on its way ;)

yaaawn~ bye dudes and dudettes. oh, grand applause for my skin please. except the music rusak. i'll fix it soon.

when you smile, i'll smile.

2009-02-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

schoool is boriiiing. holiday is boring too. but everytime friends are around, whatever the condition is or wherever we are, it'll be superb cause friends bring up the colour. rainbow needs more than one colour to be called 'rainbow'. life needs more than one friend to be validate as 'life' ohmy, lawa ehh :P HAHAH.

i came late to school. malas ambil late slip BUT terpaksa. "inda kau ambil late slip?" said Ckg Noridah. -.-' then kana bagi homework. malas ehh buat. luckily, hantar next week ;D then english, the michiko, whateverr. p.e- "SAY HELLO TO YOUR NEW TRAINING GROUND!" said Ckg Mizah. so i said, "oh hello!" *waves* cali ehh.....NOT! break, the canteen bau paluh yang tersangat kuat and bebau. iatah aku inda jadi bali, aku suruh winnie. went to khaditch, hangout with her. ate CHOCOLATES! tinggal 3bars out of 9. ): i need more! mumy bought tiga kinder buenos but she said for her, aku sudah ada cadbury. aiiiiiiiii. nevermind. aku inda karit :P nisa and amal vaining pakai lappy c nisa masa break. i wasnt there so didnt join. cubatah gitau, dapat ku ikut! esuk kami plan kan menalur pakai camera si amal. kami stayback for science project discussion. amal bawa camera. some of the rest bawa lappy. aku bawa phone, as usual. bukan pulang plan kan buat science, lain tia pulang. well, thats my friends, i love them :DD double-u. ee. arr. enn. ai. ass. WERNAS \m/s! kan friends?

i gained my n70's headset after.... a year? wow. selama ani, aku dgr lagu arah n70, nada headset, boring ahh....? i know! selalunya i listen to songs arah motorola, pasal memory nya higher. then i got a memory card for my n70. so, higher memory, more songs! but songs sent by bluetooth cant be saved. MUST download saja. boring! then, my motorola's headset rusak. dua-dua sides. so i tagih-ed headset n7o this afternoon. then she said no. but i say, i'll get it myself laterr. she just stood silent. so i said to her that i take that as a yes. then i diam. so yeah, minutes ago, i took it :D i know, naughty. but i live based on: 'i want it, i'll grab it' and so, i've grabbed it!

i cant wait for tomorrow. d&t, buat project. afternoon, VAIN-ING!!! :D english, watch Duma di reading room. but b.m and geo? boriiiing...... ): i've got science and b.m homework dued tomorrow. oh noooo! malasku buat ehh. krg malam tah. im thinking of changing my skin lagi pasal masukkan videos, skin jadi bida! so, i'll seek around for awesome skin. ciao.

yeeeehaaw!

2009-02-03T04:46:00.000-08:00

ohmigaaaad. i ask mumy to buy me dairy milk cadbury yang medium atu. she came home with the large one. awwwwwwwww. kaka sayang mumy, banar :D not just for the chocolates but also for... urm... EVERYTHING! thanks for semua mumy, lavyer! apakan aku ahh, anak mumy tah banar. nyaman eh this chocolate :9 i want more. balum abis pulang this biggie pack. get me famous amos(no nut choc chip) then some jolibee sauce, KFC chicken, express french fries, ideal spaghetti and tomato ketchup, converse sneakers and LOOOOTS MORE!

gtg. mumy nagging cause alum timetable for tomorrow and science notes alum siap print. ciao (;

i'll be yours (;

2009-02-02T22:00:00.000-08:00

PMs are bullshit. Agree? *thousand of ladies angkat tangan* kan, i told ya, inda pecaya!
i've created a blog with nisa, en-throughitall.blogspot.com. currently, nada papa. i made it kelmarin. no cbox yet. still working on it.
eh, my baby muiz text. bohh, since when i call him baby? since he call me that. :P HAHAH. gosh, dont start it. start what? ADELERR.

i miss you, sweetheart. . . . .
that's for iqbal. lama dah kami inda contact. tadi i pass him. first ia tunduk saja. then he saw me. i tunduk balik. i think he just notice me, so ia look up again and smile his cute smile :D awwwwwwww. i love kamu darling! to the max. just if i got my credit i would text him a simple, 'i love you fikri' that's it, just so he knows. isnt it enough?

eh, eikhwan cari pasal! baie. asdfghjkl! banar tah!
Eikwan says:
why do u prefer EMA?
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
did not say so.
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
when i was young, i love that name
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
in addition, im called imah, similar sikit lah
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
then i live based on, 'i want it, i have it'
Eikwan says:
i dont really like that name
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
so i have it, i have that name, at last
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
LIKE I CARE?!
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
i love it, so what?
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
what if i say i dont like 'eikwan'?
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
you dont fuckin care either roite?
ema. i dreamt about you. says:
so do i!

see? baie right? I KNOW! very bullshit-ish! uhh. not satisfied with my life? its not your bloody business mahn ;D wow. that actually rocks. i mean, what i said in the convo and what i just said. never said it in... a week? HAHAH!

listening to: somebody told me - the kings. chatting with eikhwan and muiz dahleng.

geo test, next monday & tuesday. hist, next monday. boring! ~~no indomee,~~ mumy said so. no samboi too. just coke 100plus and CHOCOLATES. oh yeah, last night makan pizzas. slurrrppppp! ada tuna and honey garlic chicken. plus, kana bagi, urm, was it super monday? whatever, the point is, kana bagi FOR FREE! lucky? *kiraikirai aku inda rasa pulang, for my mumy cause i ate her tuna slice. jahat aku ahh. but mumy said, agatah ambil tuna ah, babu yg free atu saja. so yeah, i hit it like kaboom. apakan. hahah.

okay babes and dudes, im outta here.

2009-02-02T04:39:00.000-08:00

nas just texted. i just added him few days back so as expected, he ask who i am and blahs. y'know... stupid infos of me. yeahh. that sorta stuff. i've finish my compo, yipee! maths and geo h/ws left. -.-' currently listening to over and over by three days grace. it \m/! while printing science notes dari ~~noodle~~ moodle. laparku wah, yatah tu.
y'all know zulfikar alias ayai? blog nya sangat lucu maaahn ;D girlnya cousin first saya. eh no, my first cousin! apakan. sama jua tu. soorray, hyper-ness. pasal bakas baca blog yang tersangat melucukan. visit lah blognya! and you'll get me. read the old old post jugak mahn!

BLAKE is hedge-owww-tee! :DD video spoils my skin so i deleted blake's video in my previous post. search xcrippledhope in youtube and get to see the hawt Blake im talkinga bout. but warning, dont steal ahh! :P

sing me a love song!

2009-02-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

oh mahn. homeworks piled up. im lazy. test. test. test. haven't study, might not study. i know, some of you will go, 'tsk. tsk. tsk' but my friends will say, 'goood! dont have to study, baru jua test 1, test lain barutah banar-banar' kan friends? =D

i was viweing osve's blog and reading every single post. and ohmagawd! her photography skills are double thumbs up! i envy it like, BRABIS! shait. especially the photos of moving waters. lowa (; you've gotta see it! wont regret doing so! unless you knew it. i just know her so yeah, i just knew it.

there's this awesome hawty! i've been admiring his adorable look since, mid of last year. his smile, will make ya go, 'gosh, that's the sweetest thing ive ever seen' :D i say it and i mean it! here's one of his video. there's lots more tho but thid specific one, you can see his smile clearly and admit that its the sweetest smile you could ever imagine.

comment! its (y)! roites? oh, before i change the topic, nama that guy, Blake and his mine, so dont steal-steal him from me. waddahell. nada wah. curi tia, not my anything :D -hypernessity-(?)

i just notice, im getting vain-er. semua photos in my talipun is moi. i ACCIDENTALLY deleted asyraf's pic. the only photo of him yang i captured my self and then, deleted. ): you'll say, sekadar but to me, it isnt. very complicated, idk for myself.

i need pizza. the last time i ate it was one and a half months ago. i finish my last bit of famous amos :'( and im needing more of it. i just lalalove it. to the max. iqbal said, well, last month, he has no idea what famous amos is. for real? that's just so..... nvm, wont say it. bah malasku sambung this post. banyak kan ku cakap tadi. lapas siuk-siuk baca blog others, lupa tia. im outta here.

2009-01-31T18:37:00.000-08:00

Morning blog readers. omg. lame aku ahh. lol. later ada birthday party, mumy said so but i dont know who's. my brother, zee and my sister, izah starts tuition this morning. they went off at about 8 tadi or was it 9? nvm. i had breakfast around that time and now, im hungry. qawi said, days ago, "siapa yang kalau chat selalu ckp: brb, laparku eh?" iqbal said, "inda pandai kanyang ni eh" yeap, that's my friends whose always there that's why they know aku rajin lapar (; but hey, amal said i MUST eat banyak-banyak cause im skinny. then, bujiah, my aunt, said, "dulu imah inda kuat makan, kurus. ani banyak makan, kurus jua masih" mummy said, "control sikit makan atu, inda kan baru makan, lapar tia" everybody complains about my diet. *sobs*
fandy said, he wanna scribble something about me in my blog so i let him. he saved it as draft so here it goes;

Ema Effs. full name? ask her.
The girl you'd like to call, ~~bee-yatch!~~baby ;) this Very Extremely sexy girl is oh-so-perfect.You'll never regret knowing her. Once she make you laugh, you'll never ever forget that moment. As a stranger to her, you'll be treated as a friend. Being around her, you'll notice something very attractive, it's her breath-taking smile that you'll never miss & whenever you get closer, you'll melt even faster. (she's HOT-er than any other) she once whispered, 'dont worry, you'll stay in my heart, dyy' told ya, she's the best friend you ever know. Oh gosh, she's a drug, have i mention? When you touch her hand, when you hug her tight, when she shine your world with her smile, when she fill your loneliness with her laughter, you'll always miss her, every second, you'd be thinking of her, never forgetting precious moment with her.

that's basically how i ended up falling in love with her and never did i let go of that feeling. there's more about her. millions of little sweet details but it'll take me my life time. get to know her, she'll be your best friend and your diary.
warning: her loud voice is like 60 speakers :P

sweet right? i cried reading it. but i deleted one very privated sentence. sorry.
ada this song, lowa. kate intoduce it to me masa kami di kaykay.

Bubbly - Colbie Callait
More at MP3-Codes.com

heard it? lowa right? it's so sweet.

shine my world

2009-01-30T22:10:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Zawanah ;)

happy birthday to you! this adorable lil girl is turning 14 today. roite? correct me if im wrong but i rmember her mentioned she's older than me. i got her picture from her friendster. hope ya dont mind. zaw, a cheerful girl. never seen her tears, ever. never even seen her sad. no frown, big ZERO. vain but i guess, not that photogenic. sorry zaw but really. she's always being bullied and SHE IS A BIG BULLY! :DD

anyway, today is tiring cause of my leg. ada rainbow, green plus pink. lol.
maths; parallel line. english; story book. then teacher marah pasal some of us buat pe notes when teacher starts collecting the book. pe; 13 different excercises. yeah that one, y'know.... break; milo, as usual. science; electricity and practical. commerce; topical test 1. sanaaaaaaaaaang! i got the balance and total perfectly right. woooah. kambang ku ehh. :P if iqbal reads this he'll say, 'kambang!' hehs. yesterday ia online, yipee! or was it last night? i miss him. at school, jarang tejumpa lagi. nantitah bawa hangout. i need credit, mau transfer? kalik me on msn then i'll give ya my number :D

i've got a project to do. i'll continue this post karang. oh, irfan just sent me a checkers invitation. yeaayy! ciao.

in between

2009-01-29T19:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTHSARY TO YOU & YOU!
(you know who you are & i know i'm not suppose to tell)

okaaaay, im bored :D banyak blog no update uhh. boring ehh. i wanna read BLOGS & MORE BLOGS! cause i find it waaay less tiring and more fun than reading my geo notes pasal its not colourful and my writing is bida :P tomorrow ada commerce test. boriiing. aleep complain pasal my phone inda pakai condom and his phone does. so what? nisa majal mau repair my beloved galang yang ia patahkan. because i'm kind(am i?) so i said inda payah. but ia majal jua wahhh! kha-ditch-uh said durang plan main basketball karang. oh, she's my cousin! we'll see if i can finish my homework then i'll try to join them. miss anne said, homework nada 's' at the end. kan teacher? oh yeah, she said call her Miss Anne. NO 'teacher' allowed. ;D

sebenarnya i'm in pain iatah my fingers cant stop typing of everything im thinking. pasal tadi, i fell di tangga. SAAAKIIIT! there's a rainbow on my leg. eh no, ada dua colour pulang saja. green and yellow. inda law ehh, cubatah merah and hitam. lol :P i'll be performing cat walk ni. naah, just my walk will be macam urang timpang. boohoo. eh, how will i play basketball ne? i hope the pain wont last long! im hungry. i just ate a few oreo, satu biji telur(yang cooked, of course!) and drink tea for breakfast. so, i'm hungry again. i need to watch a little comedy to cheer myself up. mumy said, 'no more stayback till official extra classes start this february' OH MUM!!! she's stealing my freedom slowly and silently. buring ehh mumy ani!

the whole family is away and im left with my maid. maybe durang breakfast outside. aku inda kana bawa ahh! damn it. my phone just rang. ada message. ooo, siapa ah? hope its him or maybe someone transfer aku credit? lol :P suspen, fatin. my d&t project mate. how am i gonna say thanks ne? aku manada credit! nevermind. i'll reply as soon as i got my credit. or maybe by that time, i'll forget. who cares. just a small matter, riiiight?

scribbles by; ema. (;

2009-01-28T03:32:00.000-08:00

yeah, i said malas update tapi buringku. J-O-B-L-E-S-S! i read alif's blog and i went crazy laughing. like zehah said dulu, 'ketawa tebahak-bahak sampai tejeluak alak-alak' yeah, she said that di friendster. i'm not taking someone else trademark but sharing is caring right? (; my stomache was sakit brabis. kan pacah ganya inda. alif's blog's fault. banarr! well, if you try telling the content to a friend, inda tia cali but if you're reading it to yourself, you'll go laughing like the joke is unbeatable. i'm not just saying but i mean it!
i need someone to play tic-tac-toe with me in msn. buring ku bahh. currently listening to 'pain- three days grace' masa thurday, i was chating with hazwan, the guy i like, NOT love, learn the difference! ia suddenly marah. he freaked me out. he said something like, he heard somethin bad about me, first he didnt believe it and he tried to keep my good name but now he feels its useless, he shouldve acted like he doesnt know me. of course i went, apakan?! :S i was freakin scared but later that day, he apologised for being kasar blablabla and 'sayang kamu! tc. bye.' phew* i thought i was gonna lose a goodie friend but as always, i was wrong. that's why i like him (;
its been a while since i contact with iqbal. no, its not like what ya think. we're not fighting or whatever but aku nada credit. boring! :( my life has turned from being 'rockstar & laughter' to 'an emo servant' yeah, i've been crying the whole night, before i sleep. i hate this. i fight with my mum, dont ask why. oh no, my stomache is growling, its MAAAD cause i've not feed it :P ciao. oh, alif texted me, 'invite emailku........' hahah. okay then (:

written by 'my stomache and me'
lol. (as always, boredom disease :P)

2009-01-27T00:14:00.000-08:00

im otw to delete this blog. malasku be blog baaahhh. or maybe i'll leave it here, not updated. unless, someone requested for me to update or, a very awesome event happened ;) so this blog will be left unupdated starting tomorrow until further notice. i WONT ever delete my a/c pasal i looove reading other's blog :DD

originally scribbled by ema.
accompanied by a shining smile.
im happy i found you (:

has-one, you're able to make my day (:

2009-01-24T00:25:00.000-08:00

im bored. yaaawn~ ooh, we had our first official hangout. oh no, scratch ~~'official'~~ out of the text. it was on a..... er... i forgot bila. maybe it was monday or was it.... nvm. who cares.
i'm having a fight with eikhwan. i spilled out his OLD secret. and when i say old, i mean, its invalid, it's not true, no longer. so what's wrong spillling it out? UNLESS, it's quite embarassing. in this case, its NOT embarassing. then, i guess he was pissed off so he hit me with a ball. not an ordinary ball, but the flattened. it didn't hurt, of course but isn't that something called, 'DISRESPECTFUL'?! i know im no senior or sister to him but cant he at least show some resoect the way i did. fuck it! so i went sulking. he apologised but oops, its invalid. he did messaged me saying, 'would u please forgive me?' *mimics* hell no, like i'll do that? maybe in a zillion secs laterr! hold on, nisa said he's fuckin mad at me. why is he suppose to be mad when he started it? should it be me who's pissed of by every thing he did to me? every pain he gave me? damn, when is everything gonna be alright? well, between us, it has never been. i dont finish what people start! so i dont end up apologising on people's misbehaviour. that's so not ema. i know im quite ~~selfish.~~ hey, welcome to my world! and y'know what? in this world, only i do rocks!
oh no, eggballs said, "jgn jadi rock. aku inda suka bini-bini rock" wuuuu! is he giving me a chance to enter his heart or what? hahah, no idea :b i love him like, BRABISS. :D and my answer to any question relating to him is yes! unless a negative one, you should understand me.
i was watching step up. cool? the second is better, banarr! (: i got this tee scribbled "STEP UP" by the side. i wore it ke mall last month masa hangout dgn asyraf and syam. then syam went make it all exaggerating. i just gave him a bangang look. and he said, 'didn't you watch step up?' yeah i did, but what does that movie has got to do with my tee? maybe they scribbled it there just to make it sounds coolio. geddit don cha?
i wanna play bball or maybe netball. i've not done a lotta sports lately. so i think i should. monday's a holiday so i guess i could play at my cousin's. hit up a bball friendly match. just like the guys do at school. or maybe hang around to play badminton. right, whatever. i've got lotsa things in my mind now and im bored so im basically just typing it all out without noticing any errors. so if you spot any, just pretend i typed it right, aite? :b

im blank, i lost all the tune that was about to fill in my post for today. *sigh* im blank now, TOTALLY blank. im outta here.ciao ladies and not-so-gentle-men (;

this page was originally scribbled by;
ema, your best friend :b (boredom disease)

neze, shadow dancing.

2009-01-17T22:52:00.000-08:00

i'm malas to update. just a little maybe. yesterday, i've got maths class. i stayed at school until, 5. me, qawi, nisa and zeeyah were hanging around the canteen. then ekaah joined cause she's home late too. qawi was home early. so that leave us girls saja. we lepak at the hilly field. we were playing our shadows. making pose then gambar2. you can check it out at facebook or i'll upload it if im rajin :) then lapas ekaah balik, boifie nya ada. actually, he was there earlier dah but we didnt see him. i'm talking bout waie'zayidi or however the spelling is. kasian ekaah eh.
last night, phone call with baby iqbal. kami, umm, panat, like always. inda ngakun wah ia ah! aku ngakun jua :P my credit is LOW! so before i sleep, i texted him once saja. i said good night, of course. he said aku ambung, manada! cause yesterday, after school, i was in front of him but i didnt tagur. he was with his friends kaliah, that's why. malu ku, plus, they kept on talking. if ia diam, i'll approach him tu!
tomorrow, ada maths class lagi, 1.15pm. yesterday, winnie said, "you pro already, why go extra class?" who said i'm pro? well, if i was, no harm in doing better right? tomorrow will be me only, i think cause i'm not clear on certain field. home at 5 tomorrow. bohh, i'll be with siapa______________? boring ne. iqbal ada class from 1-3. then ia balik tarus, i think. i asked him to hangout with me, he said, liatlah.

an ocean full of smile

2009-01-15T16:54:00.001-08:00

thursday was, hmm, not bad. cca day, i joined d&t. d&t doesn't allow loads of students joining so they actually only took in some. i wasn't on the list. fortunately, they had 5 emptys lot cause some people withdrew. me and nisa filed in 2 of the empty slot. the rest was taken by some other people. we're working on a project. our group's name; 'LOSER' hate it when my tm is being taken by other people. first, zeeyah. now, d&t club. i voted for it pulang and that was just because its the only OKAY name among being suggested.
break time, we wanted to watch an exploding pepsi BUT it didn't explode. we shaked it! why didn't it explode?!!!! boring, no amazing show =/ tomorrow, i'll be bringing it again and this time, i want it to explode! i hope so. the bad thing that happened during break, hmm... should i tell ya peeps? it's quite embarassing, Very Extremely embarassing. nevermind then. after school, i tagur-ed him, fikraay. he went to me. he's TAAAAAALLL. well of course he is, two years older kaliah. he was trying to listen to what i was saying so his face went nearer to mine. like a guy who's going to kiss his girl. then i was, umm, i was, suprised! i thought, 'i never knew he was this cute' seriously, he looks sooooo cute when he gets nearer! hahah!
home from school, phone call with fikraay. yaaay! i heard his friend said, 'yang mana kan, yang lawa atau yang bida' and he said, 'yang tadi' wtf is going on with them, panaaaatt. if you know fikraay well, you'll say he's PANAT-er than me! he did lots of speaking. y'know, in english. he rarely does. he sounded so hyperr. banarr! he said stuffs like, 'idk' 'what the...' 'waddafak' 'seriously' jarang eh he's like that, selama kami bkawan. he usually tease me when i say 'please' he'll repeat it again and again. we hang up the phone about 5plus cause my dad came home (: i had fun. i can't text him cause my credit tinggal 71cents. uhh, boring.

i dont know what's happening but major changes are happening in my life.

i was a player, wasn't i? no, i never was, i guess. but why do loads of people say i was?
i use to fall in love very easily. seriously, just in a snap! but that is PAST. now, i've changed.
im serious about that. i dont know how this all happen but i'm sure there MUST be a reason.

i fell in 'like' with him the first time i met his eye. he's not that attractive. but i felt something special about him. he got something that made him adorable.
we chat the whole holiday, that made me fell in love with him.
yes, i'm in love. i'm holding tight. i dont wanna let go this feeling. it's lovely, it's wonderful, totally.
this feeling made me see brightness, in the dark.
it made me see star in thunderstorm.
it made me see rainbow during night time.
it made me see YOU in my sweet dreams.

you were there, during the nights of my sweet dreams.
you let out your hand for me to grab. you held out your arms and hugged me.
you pull me, you lead me till...i woke up.
i thought itwas over. BUT, the sweet dream went on. you were there, in my real life.
i love you, IQBAL FIKRAAY! <33 :DDD

i wanna be a big part of your small world

2009-01-14T23:21:00.001-08:00

hold on! im blogging for yesterday cause i didn't get the chance to use the pc. yesterday, i followed winnie home, nisa too. winnie asked me to teach her about the moodle thing. yeaah, that one, MS MOODLE. she didnt how it works. then around 3, she sent us back to school. i have a grand ugly story. i was at winnie's then i received a call from someone, i don't know who. so, i answered it. she said wrong number and i believed, at first. then she asked about me, so i told her my name and class. she went and something like, 'oh u... btw im syairah. his gf. just to warn u, i dont like u mc2 and msg' okay, because of the word 'WARN', of course i thought she's inviting me to a fight. it went on and on and on. until my credit got low so i didnt reply. plus, i dont wanna loose my bestest 'guy'friend just because of his stupid girlfriend.
at school, well, kinda fun but something embarassing happened. i wanted to rest in a class, i thought it was empty cause it was silent. then i pushed it open so hardly. gosshh, some students were having class. OHMYGAAAWD! that's so embarassing. the next time they see me, they'll whisper at my back and say, 'that's the girl who went in our class embarassingly' oh shiiiit. where am i gonna hide my face?! i dont think they'll recognise me anyway. as i DON'T recognise any of them. well, if they do, they wont actually rmember the incident. at least, not forever. but to me, i'll rmember it for like, a few years time or until the next similar incident come. oh noo. who cares, forget it.
asyraf and hazwan bullied me =/ so i sulked just to test what they'll do. and guess what? asyraf approached me and apologised. i just blushed and walk away. but in my heart, i was screaming to the top of my tone, i shouted, "YEAAAAAAAAY! he just apologised and brought his sweetest face along" hahaha. to you, its no big deal but to me, i'll go, gosh, he's like one of the school's cutest guy and yet, he's apologising to one of the school's ugliest loser. :D but the rest of the day, i hid my face from them cause i had enough embarassment just one single day! but i went all hyper and talked craps with nisa. i actually tell her stories about tom and jerry she did talked about spongebob and i acted so crazy, plus weird, guess she did too. but she's better cause she wasn't THAT hyper since i was the one who had been bullied (:

you treated like an angel but i was an asshole to you

2009-01-12T23:42:00.000-08:00

its TUESDAY &weekdays are also known as homework plus boriiiing day. ohh, exclude friday X) and when i say day, i really mean day, not nights! geddit?! days are getting colder and colder and colder. homeworks are getting more and more and bloody more!
two days time and its cca day again. guess what? my friends, and im specifically talking about the people who joined d&t with me. they wanna quit. wait, they said they'll come once only then that's it. shiiiiiiiiiit. hey, where's the venue anyway? will they be telling it through the p.a system or what? anyone has info, tell me fast! before that day comes.
tomorrow is pe, oh nooo! i havent got my new sports shoes yet. just my blue sneakers and IM SO SURE i'll be dead if i wear that tomorrow. so i need to shop! oooo, that sounds cool! :P 'let's shooooop!' like they did in those shopaholic books. they shop without even thinking. and they remember each piece of clothing they once laid eye on. it's really cool! you have to read it! you won't regret! i guarantee. well, not if it's not you're type of book. its totally my type.

I LOVE PRESENTS.

ohmygaaaawd! dyy bought her sister a pair of amazing boots for her belated birthday which was somewhere in november. he was actually accompanying her sister shopping then she had her sister to try on the boots. when they found the right size, dyy bought it for her & it cost like $50-$60 brunei dollar. gosh, where did he get that loads of cash? he's somewhere in uk currently though. he haven't start school. he quit for half a year already? i know, he'll be missing a loooooot.

currently chating with zaw. she doesnt look much of a bully. but SHE IS A BIG BULLY! :P
hahahaha! stop reading my posts zaw! you get me pink all over! i mean it! but she's a real goooodie girl, very sweet one. the type of friend you won't regret to have, and im so sure of what im saying!
this morning asyraf gave me a so adorable look. you'll go 'awwwww........' when you see it! really! he gave me a manja look. at first glance, he's not cute. but when syam introduce me to him and i had a long stare at him, oh gosh he's so cute! i still cant forget the day we knew each other. i was hanging out with syam cause all my friends went home, the last day of school of 2008. so, asyraf and hazwan went, "gilaaa, lawa jua syam! siapane?" so he intoduced me to him. they asked for my email. i was online that time so i asked asyraf to add his himself. then i asked hazwan's from iqbal. i cant forget that day. and the moment he message me, his first ever message went, "kau hot.supp?" cause i mc-ed him first, i was bored, NOT flirting. highlight!!!! many people thought i was flirting him, NO, I'M NOT!

hey why am i talking about this anyway? oops. i gotta go. im super hungry. i'll continue later, or probably tomorrow.
CIAO XD and zaw, i know you're reading but this ends here! the real reason is you! i told ya it'll be boring cause im M-A-L-A-S!!! lol :P

comlicated much but didn't i made it clear?!

2009-01-11T23:10:00.000-08:00

i have an UPSET-ing day. we'll talk about the reason later.

its MONDAY, the 6th boriiiiing day of the year, not to be exact though. woaaah. i thought i've only blinked my eye for a few times, but it's really the 6th day right? or am i dreaming? I've bloody homeworks! shiiiiiiit. geo, b.melayu and idkwhatelse. as always i'm in a 'lazy' mood. i never actually got into a 'rajin' mood. well, not lately. when teacher talks in class, i wasn't paying any bit of attention. in my mind was.......umm.... things like, my just over holiday, my hours of phone call with the guy i love, my beloved late night hours and my sweet half day to sleeeeeeeeep! haha ;D when teacher suddenly raise her voice or i hear any weird noise, i turn to hakim(my seat partner) and go, "wtf did she say?!" so i guess, just thinking, maybe i won't be doing well in tt1 cause of this 'missing-holiday-disease' i NEVER miss holiday this much and i use to pay attention in class. maybe this all has a reason and i think i know the reason. it's because...... i spent the whole holiday having fun with him! ='( i miss you sweetheart, i really do.

okay, my reason to call this day an upseting day. he didn't show up. im talking about iqbal. he's supposed to. asyraf TOO. but asyraf isn't the real reason cause he actually approached me at the end of the day. he went close then raise his hand. i was bangang actually but i just raised my hand then high5-ed me. i thought, 'oh riiiiiiight' i was panat, i know. nisa and ekaah went, "sampat lagi tu......." (after asyraf went away) was it cold today? hell yeah, it was FREEZING cold! the pavement near the field was flooded with sandy rainwater or is it simply rain and sand? whateverr. passing that way is like walking in a pool which has water up to your ankle level. you'll get wet up to that level! banarr! at least, i didn't get free from that bloody thing with anything stuck to me. nisa did but i'd prefer not tell cause it's quite embarassing if i was her.

we talked with sally(salih :P) he had a chocolate for his birthday but i'm not interested who's it from. his birthday was yesterday, i rmember the date but i didnt realise it was already 11th January. time has flown too fast. it was terribly raining. Sally was holding a bunch of BRAND NEW textbooks. that's so terribly sally. you should be protecting your dear books from the naughty rain but you left it all wet, being hit, bullied and kicked by the legendary killer, THE RAIN. omg, that sounds like taken from a book. it sounds amazing. HAHAHA! again, i know i'm panat. nisa kept repeating, "sayang ehh............" but really, sayang eh! pity you little books. (it's not actually little, it was mega thick!)

oh, me and nisa, plus ekaah, we passed iqbal & hazwan tadi otw out of the crowded canteen. i gave iqbal a 'you're-so-evil!' look cause after all, he IS so evil, right? i guessed.

F I K R A A Y! <33

just a smile is enough

2009-01-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

i received a text that makes me go, wtf is he talking bout? whats actually happening?
okay here's the whole story, i was chating with iqbal. a new message came. i read it. oh btw, i'ts not from iqbal. it's from 'my sweetie dyy.'

"i know i've been a loser. a guy that's so desperate to an imperfect girl whom sees her in a perfect way. thanks for everything. i'm not leaving, maybe not. i just want you to know, if i haven't said so, i'm very thankful that i found you. i'm very grateful that i fell in love with you. i love you, baby, yes i do. and it taught me a lot of thing. my love for you was like a teacher to me. you know it's gonna hurt having a teacher nagging and ordering you around but you need her, you need the teacher to go on and discover the unknown things in your complicated life. that's my exact situation. it hurts much loving you but i can't find any other. i found someone, once, infinite seconds ago. but i can't forget you. your name, your voice, your smile, your hand, your hugs, your words. it's like playing at the backstage of my brain. it's like telling me, you're the one, you're the one, you're the one. i tried to shut it up but it went on and on and on. finally i can't stand it. i grabbed you back and this time i'm not letting go. i totally wont. i love you. you're THAT girl! i wished that all the memories we went through could repeat. remeber our moments together? i felt like flying. i thought i was in heaven cause you looked like an angel. everytime you smile, the light around you brightens. its like, all this while, you were the one shining my world. don't take me wrongly. i'm writing this not to steal your heart from the guy you so called 'the loved one' but i was just thinking of you so i wrote this. i kept it a while now. well, eversince you told me, you love him. i just add some finishing lines. then, minutes ago, i thought, why would i keep this piece of crap? won't it be useless keeping to myself when my heart was meaning to let you read it. so here it is, sent through a text message. sent with all the loves and misses of the heart. sent with sincerity. sent to the light of my life. the angel that escaped me from hell. thank you, love. i really wish to see you soon. i miss you soo."

i know i hurt you, but you should understand. you are the most understanding guy i've ever met. so, please, please understand, we are bestfriends. we can't be more. i'm sorry dear. i love you too but the different is, i love you as a bestfreind. don't leave me, i'll be missing the shield that protected me when the light is too bright. (since you've always tell me not to address you as the bright one, but the dark one) im so sorry for what i've done. i never mean to.

one step at a time.

2009-01-10T00:28:00.000-08:00

Lots of people think differently of me JUST by reading my blog and of course, i hate it. I hate it when people pass on rumors about me. Unless, it's something that's SO CLOSE TO TRUTH though it's not. That's why i deleted my old blog. This blog, i'm only inviting people i trust. IF you're not invited, its either 1. i don't have your email or 2. i don't trust you that much. i'm sorry.

Today is SATURDAY. The fifth school day of this year. Homeworks? I think i've got one. I'll do it tomorrow or perhaps tonight. I'm in a 'lazy mood' now. Plus, it's maths which makes me MORE LAZY! :P currently chating with iqbal. Where's hazwan? I got addicted chating with him. He actually managed to get rid a part of my boredom. He asked these silly question which i really had a great time thinking bout the answer.

My daily routine now is either mesej hisyam or chat with hazwan or asyraf. iqbal too, sometimes. We hardly contact now. The story is suparr-long. First, i was mad at iqbal pasal it seems like he's avoiding me, banar! So i told zeeyah that i WON'T contact with iqbal. UNLESS, he contacts me first then i'll just reply. Zeeyah made me promise but i didn't. i only promised her that i'll try, just that.

This afternoon, after school, i was from the canteen and iqbal was going to the canteen. I didnt look at him, maybe just a glance. I just stood in front him and said,'kau ambung!' and walk away. I hear him said, 'apa eh...' yet, i didn't look at him. I felt this sadness, i feel very hard to face him. After what we've been through together. I just head to my car and didnt look back to him. i was with nisa, so we just kept on talking. but now, iqbal say he actually want to like... talk a while. so i explained that my mum was there already ~~and that i have to go home before she kills me.~~

i once fell for him, the old him to be exact. he was, hm, kind. he was a simple person, not complicated to understand yet unique in lots of way. i felt it, he was special. nevermind. i'll talk long long about him in my next post. i dont have much time now.

im hungry. im addicted to dutch lady's milk, i love it :) its yummy. i drink it everyday and im hoping to get tall fast! i made effort. i wanna be tall. but taller than asyraf would kinda sucks but i wanna be taaaaall! not that tall, just normally tall. wtf? i wanna lose fats but NOT lose weight, im underweight. im getting fatter, i love being thin.

yesterday, i was chating with a guy named dyy, my best friend, my computer-like diary, my living blog, my supportive bra, the shoulder i cry on. back to my story...
dyy; have you found a guy who is almost like your dream guy?
ema; think so, two of them but each has their own 'kekurangan'
dyy; describe them.
ema; that guy, he never fails to cheer me up, but he's not that romantic. he's understanding.
dyy; the other guy?
ema; hmm... he's totally almost perfect. just he's too caring and too loyal, i'm scared if i let him into my heart, i'll break his =/
dyy; who's these two guys actually?
ema; you and my friend, hisyam
then he went all badmood and stuffs. he said he really wished that it was only him, my only dream guy but unfortunately, i found syam.

i've got lotsa stories but not enough time. maybe i'l continue monday afternoon. toodles.

2009-01-08T21:38:00.000-08:00

status; I don't know what it is, that makes me feel like this.

I'm bored of listening to instruction. I'm tired of following orders. I don't wanna listen to people anymore. I don't wanna be like this anymore. I wanna be me. Even how weird or lame I could be. That's the real me! :DD The real me is a friggin' loser, yeap yeap and I'm proud to be like this. chewaaaah. HAHAHA!

anyway, yesterday was the cca registration. Fuck, my mum called, I'll continue laterr.

2009-01-07T00:11:00.000-08:00

status; what am i gonna do with my life?

song; overprotected by; britney
im bored, currently, chatting with him. tetidur saja ya ahh. buringku ehh. i miss him, when will we get to hangout? *sobs. we never actually hangout together. i cried, i bloody did. i know, panatt but i guess i missed him TOO much, thats why. *sigh. i told him then he was like, 'banar wah?' yes baby, banarr! Dx help me, im suffering, seriously. my diary, ocean much of the word, "i miss you, ***<3"

i miss dyy, lama dah inda chat. then tadi ia text, "sorry sweetheart. can't keep in touch for a while. bye" then tarus offline. he didn't mentioned why. i called, off. grounded, i think. cause that sorta thing happened when he was grounded years ago. nevermind. he'll tell me one day.

now, listening to song and chat. plus, facebook-ing. ohmydearestgawd! he's offline, supp? he's not online-ing back. dc saja eh, malasku tunggu ia. im hungry and im smelling the aroma of friend chicken. yumyum. i like this smell, it's like telling me that 'IT'S TIME TO EAT!' hahaha :D i enjoy eating, very mucho.

btw, i deleted posts dated before 2009. sorry but those post reminds me a lot about the past and sometimes, it makes me blue. So, i decided to delete it. well, i DID NOT throw my diary cause i seldom read the front pages. nway, toodles biatch!

2009-01-06T21:51:00.000-08:00

status; because the drugs never work.

song; teenagers by; MCR yeaaahh, the drug never did work to heal me from loving nor missing you disease.
schhhhhoooooool! cubatah break 45 minutes but i know, it wont make much different. cubatah extra class starts dah. atleast, i can stayback at school till three. i can hangout, lepak-lepak with 'them' and 'him'. i'd prefer to shut my mouth when it comes to, 'who is him? and his name?'

today, ada homework! aaaaahhhh! this morning, hangout with mina, talk craps. i DO gain weight, don't you notice min? i use to be a lil thinner. maybe cause im andang kurus cangkir that's why you don't notice.

pe, pheww* nasib i didn't wear sneaker, or else im dead! not really, it's first pe lesson this year so teacher was a lil baik, really. my mates and i, we were passing the ball to each other. the playful peoples of the wernas, winnie and amal, fooling around. they were hitting the ball to each other. then rabiah, she was wanting to pass to me. she pass it hard then hit me directly at my mouth. OUCHHHHHHH!!!!!! no, i didnt bleed, luckily. hmmmmmpppft, sakit, that terribly sucks!

then break, canteen and back to class. saw mr. pinochio at the stair. then after he passes by, we were like "pinochio tadi ahh" he's famous, he's hawt. everytime he's nearby our class, i'll go, "PINOCHIO ALERT" me and winnie usually stare at him when he's around. we like disturbing him without being noticed.
right now, im bored. text messaging with hisyam, the mahn of my life, HAHAHA! honestly, he's the best companion ever. he never fails in cheering me up, entertaining me, understanding me, listening to me, make me smile, make my day better, figuring out the reason im sad, make me thinks positive. i just haven't found the reason why im not into him. maybe cause i've accepted him as a bestfriend and that's the furthest we could go, but is it really? or that's just what i thought? forget it, i love 'him' that other guy whom nobody knows about.

im also listening to music. currently listening to, how you remind me - nickelback.

"How You Remind Me"

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"

yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

it's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how, you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how, you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"

yet, yet, yet, no, no
yet, yet, yet, no, no
yet, yet, yet, no, no
yet, yet, yet, no, no

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"
yet, yet
are we having fun yet [3x]

soooooo.... hmm. *blank*
this is a part of the content of my diary for today:

"i miss holiday. the one, only & truest reason is;
i can't text him often like is use to. i miss you, sweetheart"

yeahh, we either text, mesej or call almost everyday. im so miserable DX
nada mood tarus to finish my h/w, not even a mood to read novels. uhh.
i should log out now cause i think i've got nothing else to say.

xoxo;
emarocks! :D

2009-01-06T01:46:00.000-08:00

status; i love you too.

song; there for you by; i don't remember the group name. im jobless, totally jobless. i missed my tv time cause i was busy talking craps with my mum. then, i edited some photos. i'll upload it IF it works. currently, chating with iqbal, asyraf and zaw. i wanna see asyraf's new hair! XDDDD

ema. says:
i wanna see your new hair~
a s y r a f - says:
shit
a s y r a f - says:
bida ahhh
a s y r a f - says:
T_T
a s y r a f - says:
im so depressed
a s y r a f - says:
*cuts writs*

he's emo! HAHAH! jokes. i wanna see his hair, i gotta approach him esuk! that way, i'll get a clear look of his hair. :D brilliant! i clicked for his webcam, esh, why isn't he accepting, malu kali. ;p

im out now, my favourite show is one in a few moment. 6pm, tv2! f i got the time, i'll blog again soon, maybe tomorrow.

2009-01-05T22:50:00.000-08:00

status; so so what, im still a rockstar.

song; so what by; pink.
am i suppose to continue my old post? malasku. monday, yesterday was a REAL BORING day.

my very first reason;
teacher, it's first day, h/w is driving me crazy! so, give it a rest, will ya?! my only h/w of ysterday is geography. i dont like geo, i hate geo, i fuckin' hate it! it's all so boring, very, super boring. my geo teacher was like, "geo is very important. do you guys go for holiday? its about destination, it's all about geo. so, do you think geo is important?" yeah, i know, that was such an ugly speech. jokes! im not saying bad things about the teacher but it's the subject! its DAMN BORIIING!

my second and MOST IMPORTANT reason;
that guy, he's much much ambung today. JUST a smile? i don't think so. i saw him smile but not to me. aww, pity me would ya?! HAHAHA! :D so, when i went home, i text him tarus, he did reply then i did too but after that, not a single text. my n70 is friggin' stupid. it keeps on restarting itself. pissing off babe!

break time, canteen. the canteen is suparr-crowded. i've never seen such a bunch of people crowding, not around the canteen. so, antam saja tia! :D i hit syam, kasiaaan. my hands, it plays off automatically to certain people. when those 'certain people' gets near me, immediately, my hands will slap them hard. those people usually are among the people that is so nice to hit, geddit? its like.... hmm........ their body atu inda lamah wah, very tegap, thats why they're fun to slap! hahahahahahaha.

TODAY, is still a boring day but better than yesterday. its boring, because, studies start off. gahh! hisyam, if you're reading, KAU HAWT! haha :D asyraf cut his hair, i think. i saw him when he was waiting outside this 'i-dont-know-what lab-is-that'. he kept holding his hair. syam said, asyraf thinks his hair is ugly. its not ugly, it's OKAY! seriously. but i guess he suits better with long hair (:

daymm, the school's ex book is out of stock till next week. does that mean, we have to use other ex book?! SHIIT! i want the school's! the quality of the paper is better, a lot better. like last year, i regret of not buying the school's. my mum said, its useless bali buku skulah cause i'll wrap it in pink. so i replied, its not about the cover nor the price, its all cause of the difference in quality :DD chewaaaaah. i loooove pink too much, no im not girlish, i super am not. don't believe it? ask my friends, the people close to me. my cousin said, "ema's not lady-like, she's more to rock" yeaaaaah, banar tu! hahaha, i think. pink doesn't necessarily means girlish like the girl in legally blonde! im EMA, im different. esehmen!

before i log off, i have another thing to say, HAZWAN, smile! you look serious all the time! that's all, toodles. it's tv time. :)

2009-01-03T08:35:00.000-08:00

status; this moment is perfect.
song; innocence by; avril lavigne

okay, done editing my blog. now, let's begin with a fresh new post. after all, it's a fresh new year. i guess, new me too. this end of year holidays is ending in less than 48hours. LESS THAN, ohmygosh! how's it gonna end? a phone call with iqbal and zeeyah? or with my dad's fierce nagging. guess both. waddaheck am i talking about?!

so, nothing much happen this holiday. i've been on my facebook, replying posts for a while now. i think i need a rest. a simple rest. i meant to say, maybe a few days without facebook. but no, say no to MSN resting. lol :P i'm quite suprised actually. y'know, i'm not strong in controlling my feelings, honestly. then, lots of guys, few of hot thems proposed me. yeah, it all happened this holiday. unluckily for them, i rejected. maybe they were carried away with my words. i've been sweet to them just to get to know them well. maybe they take that differently. i meant, maybe they thought i were falling for them. oh gawd, i upset them, didn't i? im so evil. i'm a heartbreaker, im sorry guys. so sorry. especially you, DYY!

its 12:45, so that means it's 4th January right?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SOPH.
best wishes and goodluck! (^)

i'm so sleepy. i slept at about 7pm just now but my mum, she woke me up nearly 8.30 mum! -.-'
she told me she was leaving and so, im in charge. i mean, she's out for a while, she has got stuffs to buy. she told me to watch over my youngest brother, he was asleep. im not in the mood, i'll continue tomorrow. i promised i'll continue but i don't guarantee it'll be done tomorrow though.